I let the pot pie burn.

Splashing out yesterday, early afternoon when I returned from Gov Is, I got some cash from the WF ATM and bought a whole pint of Pinnacle at the Chinawoman’s. I went through that fairly quickly. After downing half of it (cutting it with blue Gatorade from the race setup) I conked out and slept for six hours. Alas, I had put a Blake’s chicken pot pie in the oven at 400º for what was supposed to be 40 minutes. It was completely carbonized when I found it.

So later on I cooked up a couple of the chorizo sausages I got at Whole Foods yesterday. I sliced up the two avocados and found they had largely gone bad (a day or two late). I ate the fried sausage bits with arugula and a cut-up apple (the apple from the pre-Hallowe’en Gov Is races). Pretty good. I can do that again. A bit of salad awaits me still in the fridge.

My weekend work was characterized by constant reassignment. I found out in the last couple of days that I was going to do Timing. I had visions of setting up five sets of four timing mats, along with decoders and generators, all in the space of an hour or so. Turns out I only had to work on the split, the halfway point of the 10k on Saturday. Sol (pretty girl who is head scorer or something) sent a message on Teams that the generator should be started because the battery on the decoder was down to 60%. I didn’t see this because I had no signal over by Liggett Hall. Or thought I had no signal. And just before this happened I was dragooned by Marco and Michele into doing portapotty duty: that is, there was crowd of maybe 150 people waiting to use the carseys, and we were splitting them into two orderly lines, while Senka (large Russian? woman) and I directed each line to the vacant conveniences, the ones with a green wedge in the latch indicator. Occasionally people wouldn’t turn the latch and they were caught by surprise. Oops. But we got through them all in the last 15 minutes before the race. Then the little Korean butterball came over to set up the generator after the race started. I spent a half-hour with the bicycle guys, waiting to see when the last runner would pass the split. Well we never found the last runner, because we anticipated more when there weren’t any more. Afterwards I had to detach the mats, turn off the generator, collect the cables, pick up other generators and plywood, and fire extinguisher towers, etc. I was out of there by 12:15.

Bryan, Steve, ? and Holleran

So that was Saturday. Something similar on Sunday, except no timing duties, and I was more directly under Holleran, who had assigned me to setting up the sound. Something I’ve never done. You unzip the speakers and put them on the tripod. Then attach the AC cord to the generator, and start the generator. The one generator I tried to start was bum, for some reason. Low oil, said Mr. H. Meantime I’d been alerted on the ferry that I’d have to do marshal duty. And thus I did, back at the Oval, where the warmth of the sun was a pleasure. I counted about 750 runners coming through, but was told there were about 1100 starters. Curious about that. The special treat for this weekend’s races was doughnuts, or as they call them, “donuts.” Fortunately they had plenty of glazed and apple cider ones when I got through marshaling. After that I took down the speakers and tripods, gathered them up with the generators, loaded the trucks.

Natalie and Geoff

Michele asked me yesterday if I’d be up for driving a truck to Prospect Park soon. I said yes. I think that’s the 7th, something about cocoa. Driving a panel truck at 2 or 3 in the morning should be a novelty. There’s another race the following weekend in Central Park. Bigger one, I think. I haven’t seen any communications yet about that. Fortunately these are both a few weeks off.

Print and TV news these days is mostly about Trump’s cabinet appointments. Negress calling Pete Hegseth a “White Supremacist,” lots of warm support for RFK Jr’s healthy-food initiatives. That Waltz or Weitz guy, congressman from Florida, is considered very iffy as Defense Secretary. Elon and Vivek heading department cleverly called DOGE, something to do with efficiency.

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To the Timer Squad

I am supposed to be Timing Coordinator on Gov Is tomorrow morning and I do not feel sufficiently trained. Have reviewed the handouts. I know how to put mats down, roughly where they go, and how to thread all those cables and (I think) connect with the decoder. But not much else. Scrolling through options on the decoders seems a mystery to me. Fortunately I’m not totally alone tomorrow. A mystery to me, not entirely crucial here, is how I work on the Split, when when the Split (for a 10k) isn’t even given a mat.

On the bright side, I’m more than just a pair of hands, and I’m already—prematurely, proleptically—scheduled to do the same next month. I don’t have to labor for hours, unloading and packing up, installing a hundred French barricades, raising and lowering tents. This work is probably harder in some ways, but I’m not wandering around.

Halloran is in charge of Finish/Start both days, Sat & Sun.

I noticed Jen sent around an email, looking for applicants for a Volunteer Manager for the Brooklyn Half next spring. Volunteering is kryptonite to me, so I wasn’t tempted. I wonder what happened with Tina, the enormous and slatternly volunteer manager I dealt with in the olden days, who wouldn’t let the volunteers have bagels (etc.) because bagels weren’t for unpaid volunteers, only for the people who were already getting paid to work.

Colored my hair on Wednesday, midday, with the light brown Excellence. It looks very nice, but my hair feels very thin. I left a big grey splotch above the right corner hairline, sort of the Tulsi Gabbard look, only hers is in her thick sidelocks. After coloring and drying my hair I went to Coliseum Dental at 3 and the tall girl with glasses, the one I keep thinking is Iranian, replaced two slightly missing ceramic fillings. Apparently I have a crown on top that collides with one. Only an hour or  less in the chair, not too much chastising for my teeth being in poor condition. “Oh this has to come out, that’s another one you’re going to lose.” Paid $82 on my citi debit card card, being $68 for today’s copay and $14 from some previous dangling debit.

Then off to Whole Foods, where I bought some kind of organic vegetable hash, thick beef patties, a $6 sourdough loaf (which I basically took home for free because the barcode didn’t scan), a big 2 lb jug of maple-flavored whole-milk yoghurt, some cheap $3 granola…two avocados which are now becoming ripe (may eat a little salad for breakfast before shoving off at 4:50am)…thought about a cheap frozen pizza but put it back in preference for the vegetable hash.

Bought a $5.43 Platinum pint at Shirley’s this evening. I promise myself not to drink more than 1/2, with smoothie, before conking out for a few hours shortly. Can’t go to the ferry terminal with a load on.

The euphoria over Trump’s win continues, not just stateside. Katie Hopkins has done a few videos about why she is thrilled and really, Brits should be thrilled.

I saw nothing in these that was cringe, except possible reference to the non-issue about “men in women’s sports.” But she fundamentally sees the cultural issues clearly. And she has a huge appreciation of the American Constitution, particularly the first two articles of the Bill of Rights.

Katie sometimes reminds me a bit of Lady Colin Campbell. She might not like that. I’m surprised at how young Katie is. Born in 1975?

Katie Hopkins discusses Donald Trump’s win, while traipsing through the countryside.

It’s a government of Uncle Don, RFK Jr., J.D. Vance, Elon Musk, Tulsi Gabbard, and maybe maybe Matt Gaetz (very iffy just now). There’s also a Mike Waltz, Nat Sec Advisor designate. Pete Hegseth, the chad who shows up on Fox and Friends, as Defense Secretary, which will be hilarious if it goes through. John Thune is now Senate Majority Leader. A bare GOP majority in the House now, but it won’t be useful unless they get another 4 or 5 more; some are resigning to take appointments. A very fetching blond Catholic girl from New Hampshire will be press secretary.

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Money is tight, bowels are loose

I shat myself yesterday for the third time in a week or so. Rinsed running pants out in the sink, hung them up. Then went to the gym, pretended to start a workout, washed up, started to dry my hair. But they’ve put plastic boxes over the mains plugs in the vanity hallway, so I couldn’t plug in my dryer brush. Dried a little with THEIR dryer. Irritated, I walked home. Stopped at the TacoBell in the old YWCA. A beefy burrito and a simple hardshell taco. Quite good. But I felt I was leaking and farting through the evening, even while going through the nruns training in Brooklyn.

At home I had to phone Dottie who had called me while I was on the recumbent at the gym. I was giving her information about how to brine and cook salmon, she was telling me her health insurance broker/advisor.

A little before 5 pm I set out for the Gowanus area of Brooklyn. There are two subway stations near the warehouse I was approaching. I now know that my usual one, Smith and 9th, is about twice as far as the other one, 4th and 9th. And 4th and 9th has the advantage of being on both the BMT (R) and IND (F) lines. I was glad I set out early, as there were delays on the downtown F. Big fat Hasid or whatever squeezed in next to me, then moved to a 4-ft bench when that opened up. We waited at 42nd or 34th street for an extra 15 minutes. But by the time I got to Smith and 9th, it was only around 5:30 and I didn’t have to be at the warehouse until 6. I gave myself a leisurely walk, arrived around 5:45.

This was for scorer/decoder training for nruns. Very pretty girl who calls herself Sol led the way. Erica was there too, and a couple of others I knew. We spent most of the hour-and-a-half or so going through Sol’s digital notes on setting up the decoder and cables and mats. After 45 minutes of lecture we pulled out some mats and cables, and decoder boxes, and set them up on the floor of the warehouse. Me, a fat girl in a Fordham jacket with a name like Lydia (not), an amusing old negro I’ve interacted with in the past named Aaron, and a few others I did not know. Cables get plugged together, then into the decoder box, then the decoder readout gets set and primed. Later the generator gets set up and plugged in (turn on, choke, turn off choke, etc.) and we set up the digital clock.

Nearly all of us left, around 7:40, for the 4th and 9th subway station. It took me only a half hour to get home. Some strange black guy, a burn victim with most of his ears gone, was showing off pictures of himself and begging for money. Reminded me of the blind or at least sunglassed negro in the silver space suit in Greenwich, by the Woolworth’s on the Post Road, back in 1959: “Did you thank God that you can see?” When Nan-nan and I went to Greenwich for some reason. She’d brought me a toy wristwatch on that occasion. I’d initially thought it was a Swingline TOT stapler. Similar plastic box.

November 7th is the anniversary of Moki shitting the bed, or me finding him shitting the bed after bringing him Starbucks coffee (which he much enjoyed) the previous day. I cleaned out the shower and laid down what I thought was a rolled-up bathmat he had, and tried to get him into the shower. But I couldn’t get him up. I got some sponges and a dishpan with soap, and we tried to clean his shitty butt, and all the diarrhea he’d left on the sheet. I cleaned it up as best I could. Only at this point did it dawn on me that Moki belonged in a hospital. I’m still glad I did not put him away. We had a couple of pleasant weeks together. In bed. Watching Godfather movies over and over. Maybe GoodFellas.

I had thought of writing a diary entry on Election Day, after I voted for Mr. Trump. Instead I wrote a long shaggy-dog piece about my prognostication about presidential elections. I made it convoluted enough that it could be taken as satire. Anyway, shortly after I posted it, around 5:30pm, I became confident that Trump was going to win, if only by a hair. And then by 10pm it appeared it would be more than a hair.

Not all votes are counted, a few states still out, but it is obvious Trump has something like 312 EV to Kamala’s 226. Kamala’s candidacy was a complete joke, and it’s only after Election Day most of us can really face up to that.

It’s a sweep for the Republicans, as I secretly suspected it would be. We have the White House and the Senate, by a long shot; and almost certainly are keeping the House.

Sympathetic eyes and voices in Britain and elsewhere are cheering on the results. It’s like Churchill in 1940-41: the decision has to be made in the USA. It is our duty to lead. I resent this totally, and can forgive it only to the extent that the Powers that Be and Were have so manipulated things that the French Empire and British Empire no longer exist, leaving the American Empire, which should not be playing with fireworks outside its own backyard, to pretend to lead the way.

The ‘Easter Egg’ surprises in the Trump win include, most prominently, the Bobby Kennedy Jr. initiative. He should be, from the outset, the most prominent member of the Administration. All news stories should revolve around him. It will be a great distraction from everything else. He wants to mastermind health concerns, get poisons out of water and food. There is no greater existential calling in the short or long term.

Very early this morning I was wondering about that Albert Finney portrayal of Churchill, something I saw 20 years ago. Turns out to be The Gathering Storm, a single TV movie. What I remembered mainly was Vic Oliver singing ‘Keep Young and Beautiful’ in a terrible revue sequence in which Sarah was a chorus girl. I’d imagined this was a whole series.

I went to get a nice Bowl at Chipotle across the street. My Citi Cash card was declined. Whatever for? Surely there is some credit. But my MGM+ card was also, apparently, declined. I’ve hit the ceiling. I am not completely skint but have hit the ceiling on some things. Bought a pint of Svedka at Shirley’s on the Amazon credit card. Tomorrow, $500 from Gusto, next week $1500 from SS. After that, some shit job from HopeDepot or crazy remote development looney.

Now that Brian is safely dead I suppose I can ask the once-and-future President for a job. I will definitely send a note in the next few days.

I really would like to have Moki with me now, to see Mr. Trump win again, unambiguously. And to watch Breaking Bad with Moki.

Why I did not get another 5 or 10 years of grace with my husband is a mystery. Trump’s win probably was connected with Peachy Keenan’s novena to Our Lady of Victory. That bought us another few years of struggle and hope. I did not make nearly enough struggle for Moki (other than wisely not taking him to the hospital) but I did let him down in the last few weeks.

On the subway, to and fro, I was reading a book, probably a PhD dissertation, about Flannery O’Connor and her treatment of negroism. She was very sound.

 

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SPAM with Bacon…

…is basically like back bacon. I had a few slices on three thin sandwiches today. I had never had any kind of SPAM before, but kept reading it was delicious. It was. Grilled in skillet.

Mostly lying on the bed all weekend. It is Sunday night. I did not go to mass. I did however go to All Saints and First Friday mass two days ago.

Dishes piled up in the sink to an extraordinary degree. If I don’t do dishes at least once in two days they get overwhelming.

About $5.00 left in the WF account. About $500 coming in on Friday. Rent check goes out tomorrow. Haven’t paid in a couple of months. If the VCF payment doesn’t look like coming through in the next few months, I don’t know what I’ll do.

Wednesday I went to Coliseum at 3 and had my teeth cleaned…because that is covered by insurance. That slender, tall, Persian female dentist is riding me again about getting numbers 2 and 3 pulled. Thinks 2 is cracked. Also wants wisdom tooth #1 out. There is no reason for this. Anyway I have an appointment with her, middle of next week (the 13th) to fill in a couple of cracked fillings on the lower left.

One of the reasons for the sink overflow is that I did some cooking around the 30th. Was seeing Dottie on the 31st. Brought her some of my rutabaga mash and a cup or so of brown rice (Nishiki) and a packet of Chinese mustard (from the cupboard bowl) because her Chinese food delivery left these out. I also attempted to make rutabaga jack-o-lanterns, with knives and then electric drill, but gave up. Bought a $17 bottle of Prosecco for Dottie (mainly) and some v for myself at Shirley’s. Dottie also requested that I haul up a brick that she used to prop open the roof door, but which somehow had migrated to the courtyard out back. I couldn’t find it, we didn’t need it. Cooked chicken on the hibachi. Also homegrown arugula salad and some kind of squash that looked like crab. Yellowjackets buzzing around. Dottie took out her tennis-racket zapper and killed a few.

Wanted fish & chips yesterday morning, so ordered from A Salt and Battery and went downtown on the F train. I’d misremembered the shop as being near Fiddlesticks. No, it’s up around 13th St on Greenwich Ave. Got my haddock and chips, right on time, ate it for lunch then dinner. Later went off to the NYPL Mid-Manhattan to get a book about Flannery O’Connor. Something Greg wants me to review. Very narrow book, like a short dissertation. O’Connor and ambivalence of race. Also got some Skyhorse book about JFK conspiracy. On my way down I saw The Travel Agency, cannabis store. Went into complain about my chocolate edibles being missing one piece. Sissy redheaded white boy at the counter (most in there are nignogs) told me the one mustache-shaped piece is actually correct, it is two portions. I have no way of knowing if that was true, but I suppose I can believe it, given the hell I went through last week, or the 21st. The teenage horrors all popping out, fresh as harvest day. Who would have thought that the sc shame would continue to be lively 50 years later? I appeal to you, ladies and gents. Anyway, I bought a $3.50 can of soda, or something, with a mere 3.5mg of THC, and that was sufficient. I mixed it with vodka yesterday, and got just enough buzz without going over the rails.

Am due for the timer training at the nruns warehouse on Tuesday evening (two nights ahead). Not sure I want to get tied in for being a regular timer, since that involves, among other things, hooking up the electric wires in the mats. But I now have a ThinkPad as well as my MacAir. The ThinkPad that came about 5 days ago is surprisingly heavy, though versatile. It has Windows 10, but supposedly can install Windows 11. You flip the screen around and it becomes a touchscreen tablet. Still very heavy, though, and not as user-friendly as the surviving MacAir.

But the ThinkPad was in remarkably good condition. One crack, NW corner, which I somewhat repaired with superglue.

I registered for an Outlook mail account. M…V…@outlook.com. Haven’t used it.

Do I bring the ThinkPad or the MacAir or nothing to the timer training on Tuesday? Send msg to Jen H and ask.

New York Marathon today. How pathetic it all seems.

Short-term, signed up for the Criterion Channel. Am watching some Coen films. Watched The Big Lebowski all the way through yesterday, and now The Hudsucker Proxy, which is of the same era and mien, to the point where I mixed the two up. None of the Coen films I’ve seen are big on plot, except for Fargo, which is near-perfect in so many ways. And maybe Blood Simple, though I haven’t seen it in nearly 40 years. They tend to be scattershot picaresque. This happens, and that happens, and that leads to this minor plot… The Big Lebowski seemed to be a latter-day comment on Chandler confusion. It’s got Julianne Moore doing a Kate Hepburn routine that is really a retread of the Jennifer Jason Leigh character in The Hudsucker Proxy. Which I have yet to finish…maybe 25 minutes to go.

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Not Too Wrecked But Not Energetic

Two shifts at Gov Is over the weekend. Not too wrecked after that. Ferry Terminal and then Amenities on Saturday (10k). Start/Finish under Holleran on Sunday (5k). No particular pain in the neck/left shoulder. It was starting on Saturday but this time I brought along that mysterious tube of Tiger Balm that’s been sitting in the red hanging cosmetic bag for years. And you know, it actually works.

James P., foreground, Steve L. with arm extended, in bg, testing out the tape-break for the 5k on Sunday.

Middlingly cool, sweater weather, on Saturday. Uncomfortably chill, in the 40s on Sunday. I wore the navy sweatshirt with a Buff and the day-glo uniform jacket, with my zip-up Asics fleece running pants.

Oh yes, I shat in my red Tempo running shorts, worn as underwear. And I didn’t have a spare pair with me. I found this out when I went into a portapotty along Liggett Hall to take a wee. Seemed to be the result of the big Dunkin coffee and doughnut I had at 5:30 in the morning.

Went to the liquor store at 56th and 9th yesterday after coming in from Gov Is. Then stopped at Dave’s Hot Chicken and got little fried chicken ‘bites’ and fries. Good stuff, but $12. A very rare indulgence, more out of curiosity than anything else. I’m glad I don’t have a fondness for junk food.

Was out of coffee. Went out to M-W in late morning, after getting coffee cake and coffee at Starbucks early. I got milk and yoghurt, and toilet paper and a can of tomato sauce and box of ziti. Had an idea I’d make mashed rutabagas but there were no rutabagas to be had, not even for ready money.

But forgot the coffee. Turned around in the lobby and went back out, this time to the drugstore.

With the Brooklyn HM the previous weekend and these two shifts and odds and ends, there will be something like 25 hours hitting Gusto a week from this Friday. The pittance I get suggests something like $500 after taxes etc. I will feel almost rich.

Next week I also will have timer/decoder training in Brooklyn, at the warehouse. Perhaps impulsively I bought a used $50 ThinkPad on eBay. My thinking was that a PC machine always comes in handy, and the timer work seems mostly done on a Windows network. The Lenovo ThinkPad has Windows 10, but I think can be upgraded to W11 if need be. I’m hoping it’s not too bruised and used. I see many of these for sale about that price: “fleet” laptops remaindered by corporations. Good new Windows laptops go for $200-$300 so there really isn’t much resale value in these, unlike with Macs.

Other than that, no responsibilities for nruns until Nov 16 & 17, once again a 10k and 5k. I believe there’s a half in Central Park in December, and then not much for a while. I suppose nruns will be figuring out logistics and operations revenue for the upcoming year. They took a gamble by hiring paid (lowly paid and casual, but paid) part-timers early this year to take the place of the volunteer program, which really wasn’t working out. I saw the tail end of that during the Brooklyn Half expo in April, when the enormous Tina showed up and I briefly chatted with her and Tom Joyce in the ZeroSpace waiting room upstairs. Lots of attrition with the volunteers. I only lasted a year or two myself; there was a distinct lack of support for these people who were working for nothing. And so they decided to hire part-timers. But the part-timers too have suffered from attrition and JH has taken more people on in the last few months. I have a foggy notion that if I keep my nose clean and my eyes alert I can be bumped up to something more steady and serious.

Last week I bought a replacement battery for the Garmin 235, which now runs down after a few hours. Enough for a daily run, not that I’m doing that, but not enough for a 10-12 shift with nruns, where I’m doing maybe 5-6 miles of walking.

Today I took the remnants of the Cincinnati chili I made a few days ago, mixed in a can of tomato sauce, and used it to make baked ziti with the bag of shredded cheddar/jack. And it is quite good.

Must write something for Greg. The Charles Stuart thing, I think.

Took a trial sub to New York today, thinking there would be a lot to read. There wasn’t. I did however do a crossword, for the first time in decades, and finished it, in a bit under an hour. Those things are mesmerizing.

Appt with Coliseum Dental on Wednesday. Cleaning. I didn’t want to go back to them, but I’m paying the dental insurance and have not been to NYU in many weeks, because haven’t connected with the periodontal department. So, clean first, and ignore their useless extraction-happy lectures.

Seeing Dottie on Thursday. She’s tried to have me over a few times but we didn’t connect.

Doing a Peachy Keenan novena to Our Lady of Victory, for the (unstated) victory of DJT in the vote next week.

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Adventuresome Day, Good Walking, Terrifyingly Stoned Again

Only by glancing at my gmail list the other day did I discover that my Bellevue WTC appointment was supposed to be on Monday the 21st, not Thursday the 24th. In all this time I hadn’t made it to the gym or lost any weight. So I packed up, with the dryer brush, and set off for TMPL. Around 54th and Broadway I realized I was too fatigued to do anything, and went home. Exactly a one-mile walk.

I slept much of the afternoon and evening, fitfully, waking in the wee hours in the midst of listening to Toland’s The Last 100 days, which is surprisingly good. Little gossipy asides about, eg, Patton sending men on a suicide mission to rescue his son-in-law.

At 7am I took impedimenta out of the bathtub, and showered and shampooed. Good thorough cleaning here, with conditioning from the L’Oreal dye box. Dried hair with towel, gun dryer, and brush dryer. Dressed and set out for the doctor’s at 8am or so, heading across 56th to Fifth, down a few blocks, over to Mad and Park, through GCT and down Lex. 145 E 32nd is on the east side of Lex. The office was nearly empty when I got there. A large fat negro at reception gave me a clipboard of paperwork, then made me fill it in again because I’d filled in spaces he hadn’t marked. Dr. Schiffman turned out to be a squat, kinky-haired woman of 55. Not a trained gerontologist but a pulmonary expert. I didn’t take clothes off or discuss my last period or pregnancy. Very cursory. I did have to give blood later, but that was no nuisance.

Then, up Lexington again to GCT, where I wandered about, looking for improvements. They have a red-and-white brasserie in the old waiting rooms on the 42nd St side. I bought jalapeño jack and gourmet crackers at the cheese shop in Grand Central Market.

Temptation overtook me when I got to 48th St and so I went to Sean’s. Spent over $40 on a huge burger and fries, and a double vodka on the rocks. Because the old guy who came in ordered a double vodka and that sounded like a good idea. I wrote a couple hundred words in the Muji diary (88). Will type them in at bottom.

When I got home and stripped down for a nap, I recalled that I’d stopped at The Travel Agency, a cannabis store, on Fifth, somewhere near the Scribner’s building. I’d bought a tiny bag of chocolate edibles. Opening it now, I found there was only one piece there, shaped like a dark-chocolate mustache. I was disappointed, and gobbled the whole thing down without reflecting that the 10 THC listed was what was contained in a much larger candy bar I bought out in Seattle in 2017.

So in a half-hour or so it hit me. Like a bad trip. Hallucinating with my eyes shut. All the horrible thoughts I’d had on acid or strong hash when I was 18. Cruel caricatures of me before my eyes, mocking me for the pathetic freak I am. Unstoned, little of any of this bothers me now, just as it did not when I was 18.

Cottonmouth. I kept staggering to my feet and filling a cup with water. After doing this two or three times, the dreadful, self-persecuting thoughts began to fade. Yet it must have been a 4-to-6-hour high in all, mostly unpleasant. A relief when early morning came, after some genuine, undisturbed sleep, and I knew the bad trip was now out of my system. I still staggered a bit when getting up. In the course of the next few hours I ate all the cheese and half the crackers I bought yesterday.

I remember going home after first couple months in college, for Thanksgiving, and smoking a little joint in the bedroom with the window open. At that point similar thoughts had flashed upon me, but they were happy and welcome. There was the sudden realization, not for the first time, that the sc was a-comin’, and inevitable.

My blood report from Bellevue shows that my LDL cholesterol is high, but my HDL cholesterol is in the good range. I thought Michael had some anti-cholesterol pills among his stashes, but I’m not seeing them around now. Perhaps I tossed them.

I’m thinking of going down to The Travel Agency and complaining. Bring the pack. I don’t really want more of this stuff. Maybe something indica.

Now I feel free, terribly free and reprieved. It’s Tuesday, and I don’t have to go see Schiffman in two days. Nothing on the books in fact until early Saturday morning, when I work Ferry and Amenities for Gov Is.


 

From Diary 88, yesterday:

21 OCT 2024

Sean’s Bar for the first time in maybe 6-7 years. Double shot of vodka because I haven’t had booze in a week and this looks like a half-pint in the big double-old-fashioned glass (more like triple-old-fashioned).

Fatigue from yesterday, when I went off to TMPL but turned home again halfway out. Slept pretty well, listening to J Toland’s Last 100 Days. Never listened before. Awful lot of tiring detail about crossing the Rhine. Lately it’s Operation Sunrise and the ineffably incompetent Reischsführer Himmler.

To my complete surprise, my WTC in-person appt at Bellevue was this morning, not the 24th. And I was all prepared to talk about my pregnancies, my chillun, but the subject never came up. I didn’t take my clothes off. Short, fat, rather jolly Dr. Leah Schiffman. They did take blood afterwards.

 

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Wrecked After Prospect Park, Once More

Lying on bed, one knee propped up against t’other, MacAir on thigh, 10:25 of a Sunday morning. Don’t feel sick (occasional cough) or terribly wrecked after yesterday in Prospect Park (Falling Leaves HM and 5k) but when I get up I stagger a little and think I could sleep a week. I slept most of Friday, then got up around 9 or 10 pm, dawdled a bit before catching the subway at 2am. The F train is on a wonky schedule, skipping stations, and so it skipped Prospect Park – 15th Street. Next stop, Church St. I got off. Had no idea where I was but figured I could walk to the park within 20 minutes, and if not, call an Uber. After waking a mile or so through rather pleasant neighborhoods—a big BP statin and convenience store, like something you’d see maybe on an Interstate out in the sticks—some overhead walkways which reminded me of when I’d go to Bishop Ford H.S. to get bib for the Iona 5k in PP—I found my way to the SW corner of PP, and after that it was just a matter of another 10 or 15 minutes. I was supposed to show for the Finish squad at 3, and actually showed around 3:07. So not too bad. We almost immediately walked up Center Drive and unloaded a truck or two. Boxes of medals. A couple of tents and tables. As with the last 5k/HM deal in PP in August, I was assigned duty of sweeping or raking up the leaves and mulch and other debris from the road. This was the finish for the 5k, followed 150m up the hill by the HM finish. Again I got snoggled into filling the medal racks, after putting up the French barriers for an hour or two (we used about a hundred at the Finish) and then the webbing or gauze or whatever they call it. The mesh. Black on one side with nruns logos and white on the other. You unfurl and lock-tie these 50-foot-long, 3-ft-wide decorations to the barriers, on top and bottom; and then of course have to take them down again at the end, and spend about an hour with a half-dozen other people loading the barriers back onto a couple of trucks. This was only the Finish; down at the double Start area there may have been nearly as many. uStood with Jasmine at the top of the hill, laying 20 HM medals on each hook of the rack. We had 1000 registrants each for the 5K and HM, and had medals for almost exactly those numbers. Very little surplus. An hour or so into the HM I was sent out onto West Drive for crowd control, which I suppose means making sure people are strolling into the finishers’ lane. PP has 3.3 miles in its loop, so end of 3 loops is 10 miles, and anyone who’s run 10 miles knows he’s got another loop to go. Nevertheless there were people in the outer lane (for loops 1,2,3) who were confused and asked if they should get into the Finishers lane. I can see the confusion here; you’ve done three, now you’ll do the final loop; but the Finishers lane only takes you about 1/8th of a mile, to the HM finish mat. Ahead of me, by an H sign pointing to the lane for runners in loops 1,2,3 stood Geoff Vincent, ready with his mocking remarks at these runners who all had GPS watches but didn’t know how far they had run. (My Garmin 235 is losing battery power, conked out after 6 hours and maybe 6-7 miles of mostly walking and standing around.) Geoff used to to live in Brooklyn and ran in PP a lot, he mentioned the Cherry Tree 10-miler. I stood out in West Drive until after noon, then we did the “load out,” putting the tables and tents and barriers back on the trucks. This took us nearly till 2pm. I was so fatigued I had to stop and rest on one of the benches on PP West, before making my way up finally to Bartel Pritchard Square. Fortunately not too long a wait for the F, which was quite crowded though I got a seat. The digital station indicator in the car kept giving the wrong information. The stop was Carroll St when really it was Bergen St; then all the following stations, all the way into Manhattan, were Bergen St. I drank 1 1/2 Celsiuses from the tent. Marco Trevino jokingly told me not to drink the second (he was getting rid of surplus during final load-out around 1:45) because I’d already had one that day. The first time I drank a Celsius it did indeed make me a bit ill. These two had little effect. Except I did have a full bladder by the time I got to the subway. Getting home, the toilet was my first stop. A 35-second pee.

Next weekend, a double-header, though neither nearly as strenuous. A 10k and 5k on Gov Is. That’s maybe 6 hrs each shift, for perhaps 24 hours this month. Almost something like a real paycheck. We’re supposed to wear costumes or something. I’ll wear on of Moki’s flat caps and a black eye-mask and maybe a ratty scarf, and say I’m a burglar.

Sitting here on Sunday morning, watching bits of Downton Abbey, first two episodes (quite good), making coffee, ordering a replacement battery for the Garmin 235. I don’t know if there are instructions anywhere. There doesn’t seem to be a replacement service either.

I was supposed to have gone to the gym every day for the past two weeks, or months; but that illness Oct 1-15 and beyond through that into a cocked hat. Still a bit of coughing, though not a steady hack. On Thursday I have to see Dr Schiffman at Bellevue. I will be cheery and dishonest, and wince when I see what I weigh. Perhaps today through Thursday I wil make it to TMPL. Whatever I do weigh, I suppose I can slough off ten pounds. How to get to the new Bellevue office? Around Lexington and 32nd. Walk to Park, down Park seems the best bet. I’m almost certain MSK has not supplied my records to the lawyers and thus to the WTC VCF medical people.

No booze in the last few days. No desire.

It appears Mr Trump has the inside track to regain the Presidency, but I am far from certain about that. Betting odds are something like 60-40 or better. Those are bets, not votes. He might get swindled again, despite the slight precautions they’ve put up.

Have not paid rent in nearly 2 months. Tomorrow.

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Finding The Lobster

There’s a great quasi-underground magazine called Lobster, or The Lobster, or Lobster Magazine, and it has a focus on British spy scandals and conspiracy theorizing. American spies get wrapped up in this too, along with JFK Assassination theories.

One of the most beguiling things about Lobster is that, after 40 years of being just out of the public eye, it has stayed true to its roots and even now has something of the look and feel of a xerographed, hand-stapled, 1980s ‘zine.

I keep meaning to subscribe (older issues are free online, recent ones not) in order to charge up my own investigative batteries. But I always get distracted. Recently, as the long-awaited crash-and-burn of the Red Lobster chain took up the news, I found myself wondering about a blog piece I’d read and maybe commented upon seven or eight years ago. I never thought of doing an internet search for it…not till now, when I finally find it. And here it is, fresh from 2017:


The Awfulness of Red Lobster, and Other Awful Things

The owner of Stuff Black People Hate apparently thought better of this one, and made it private. But copied from the Google cache, the archive lives forever: http://archive.is/sPGNv . Herewith a sample:

Since you’ve been waiting 45 minutes, you gobble down four of these biscuits and, after drinking two glasses of water, you realize that you’re pretty much full already. Not only are you full, but you feel like shit because your stomach is now filled with a year’s worth of butter and garlic. You’re at Red Lobster, though, and there is no time for weakness. You open up the menu and behold how delicious everything looks – especially the beloved Admiral’s Feast: a breaded, battered, Neptunian heart attack in waiting that could be considered the most humane way to slowly kill a person. The Admiral’s Feast consists of a big ass chunk of fried fish, fried clams, fried shrimp, and fried bay scallops with a side order of your choosing that’s supposed to delude you into thinking you’re eating healthy. There’s nothing more ridiculous than someone ordering the Admiral’s Feast with a side of vegetables, which is akin to asking for a candle and romantic musing while getting raped in prison.

Red Lobster’s owners are aware of their popularity among blacks, but they prefer not to acknowledge it publicly for one reason or another:

Still, it is a well-known “open secret” that the casual dining chain ranks high on the dining-out lists of black people across the nation. Crystal Swiggett, who worked as a server in a suburban Cleveland Red Lobster for two and a half years, noted that black guests kept the joint jumping. The restaurant was located in Beachwood, Ohio, where the population is 87% white and 9% black, but the restaurant’s clientele was a complete flip flop of the town’s racial makeup.

“Ninety percent of guests were black,” Swiggett said. “It was the busiest restaurant I ever worked in. It stayed busy.” Though Swiggett no longer works at Red Lobster, she dines there regularly with her family.  She has cut back on fried fish, saying, “Family health issues led me to start thinking more about that.” Her father recently died of congestive heart failure, she said.

A while back Joe Queenan tried to address the awfulness of Red Lobster in his usual wisecracking style, but he refused to take on the racial issue as he really wanted to talk about White Trash. So it was a limp takedown indeed. He even used this piece as the title essay in his next published collection. Significantly, you never see Joe Queenan cited when other people write about the awfulness of Red Lobster.

I avoided Red Lobsters after trying one in San Diego years ago and noticing the preponderance of negroes. I have nothing against negroes, I just don’t wish to be around them when I eat. Call it an eccentricity, or delicate feelings, if you wish. As SD is not a negrified location, this phenomenon came as a surprise.

For low-cost gluttony I thenceforth depended on a buffet restaurant called Soup Plantation, full of happy, plump white families driving down from Del Mar and La Mesa. It was many years before I ever stepped inside a Golden Corral, which has acquired a reputation that might be called Red Lobster squared. A typical description [oops sorry link is dead] from an online forum:

Well,here I go,trying to find a nice place to eat on a budget.I work out of town alot and I get tired of microwave dinners and the like….We have a place called Golden Corral around these parts…It’s a really good buffet type place with good food at good prices ($10.00 all you can eat).I found one close by were I’m staying and went in and sat down,making sure that there was not a nigger in sight. I had just gotten my tea and salad when,you guessed it,3 fat she-boons and their 4 niglets came in and sat right beside me…I had already paid for my meal so I hoped for the best..it was not to be…These nigger sows took off on the buffet like Grant took Richmond…add to that the 3 niglets and of course a newborn nigger and the carnage was complete…Golden Corral was niggerfied…..loud talking and cell phones going off and the she-boons bragging about their new cars….Damn,it was totally disgusting….But while I ate I did get to observe the feral nigger close up and so I would like to share some of my field observations…
#1 Golden Corral has a very good selection of food,seafood,roast beef,vegetables and a great steak place where you can order steak, cooked like you like it, straight off the grill..really tasty…Well with this vast selection of food do you know what the niggers got?…That’s right…Fried Chicken….every nigger bitch and the niglets got a big heapin’ order of yard bird…..I guess there is truth in the statement that niggers and chicken go hand in hand…..
#2…every nigger sow had on bright red lipstick and blonde hair….why,if niggers are so much better than us why do they copy everything about us?
#3…Every nigger sow got or made at least 5 phone calls while I was there…what the hell is so important?
#4…Niggers are truely animals…The niglets, after eating began to roam the aisles..being a bother to all of the well behaved white persons and only calming down for a second after a nigger mammy hollars so loud that the whole parking lot can hear..”Dontarius,you get your ass over hears or you ain’t gettin no ice cream!” You could see the whites rolling their eyes at the young nigger thugs…
#5.. Niggers aren’t poor..This meal alone costs the niggers right at $60.00 bucks…and these niggers paid right up…In fact,any time you go out to eat you will see niggers with brand new cars,new designer clothes and loads of cash………courtesy of the “white debil”……..
#6…….Niggers always trying for free stuff….of course before leaving the niggers say to the young Hispanic waitress that “Dey,not be eating all dey food,so dey be wanting “snoop doggy” bags for later”…Golden Corral, being a buffet does not have take-out unless you pay….Naturally a chimpout ensues and the manager has to explain about 10 times to the she-boons why they cannot take food home without paying…..And of course the young waitress doesn’t get a tip even after bringing,I know at least 4 glasses of tea apiece to each of the she-boons and wiping up at least 3 spilled drinks courtesy of the niglets…
#7…..niggers are simply disgusting and every white knows it….I know by the look on the white faces….when these niggers walked in,every white person was secretly wishing…”Please God, Don’t let these niggers sit next to me and my family.”

Well, that was my $10.00 niggerfied Golden Corral dinner…..I try to avoid places were niggers work or eat but,nowadays it seems,especially down here in the south, that you just can’t escape from the feral nigger anywhere…..unless you can eat at the high class places where the rich, nigger-loving liberals go when they want to eat out….niggers don’t like caviar or duck l’orange……

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Coughing Fits, Little Fitness

Wednesday, October 2, 2024

Fiercely ill the last day or two. Terrible hacking cough yesterday morning as I awoke (I awoke several times), temp of 101º in the evening. Didn’t feel too bad, so went out and got a couple books out from LPA and later a pint from Shirley’s. Went through that pint pretty quickly. Was schnockered by the time the VP debate came on. Verdict seems to be that J.D.Vance creamed Timmy the Bully.

Weather very pleasant yesterday. Cool and breezy. Sky clear for the first time in five days. The hurricane in Florida shut down power in the Gulf Coast and caused floods in Asheville NC, while sweeping us with a tail of cold mist. Peak of it came on the weekend.

Saturday I was setting up a fluid station and marshaling a half-marathon in Liberty State Park. In spite of the long hours (2:45am to 2pm) it was really one of the most enjoyable races yet. I had a new headlight (Amazon) and new gripping gloves (HomeDepot) and in spite of the constant drizzle didn’t get too soaked.

I spent much of the long first dead hour marshaling the HM (I was near the 10 mile mark) reading the LRB, a nice juicy review of what looks like a very find Kubrick book. At the LPA yesterday I was mildly surprised to see that there are already a number of Kubrick biographies out. In addition to the recent one I listened to on Audible and this one that was reviewed in the LRB.

What I got from the LPA was the Letters of Cole Porter and a bio of Joan McCracken, The Girl Who Fell Down. The Porter book was over- and ill-used, vile stickiness on the library cover, some of which I wiped off with Zep. Melancholy toward the end, of course, these Porter letters. He’s not writing the letters, even, they’re brief missives typed up by his secretary Margaret or Madeleine Smith, to Sam Stark or Abe Burrows or Irving Berlin or Solly Chaplin or some other Jew. Reason there are so many Jews is that after the double disaster of Aladdin and leg amputation Cole was still being prevailed upon to take a look at this or that property as a potential musical venture. Oddly enough, except for that Aladdin dud on TV and the so-so reception of Out of this World, Cole’s last working decade was his most successful. Kiss Me Kate (show and film), Can-Can (ditto), Silk Stockings (ditto), High Society (film), Les Girls. He was on a roll, and the producers and investors felt they could squeeze a few more hits out of him. After all, he was still in his 60s while Irving Berlin was about 80 and still tinkling away.

In looking at Porter books at the library, I went immediately to the index to see if that Egyptology professor were in there. I had a helluva time thinking of the name. Something for my ‘Stuff I forget’ list. There was a first initial and a Kelly or Kelley in there before the surname, two syllables. Now this is real brain-rot. It took me a good minute to remember: W. Kelly Simpson. Looking in Wikipedia I see he only died in 2017, age 89. I told Ben Bagley the only Yale person I knew who might have known Cole was this Egyptology professor, so he passed it on to a McBrien who came back with the embarrassed admission that he already knew Kelly because he’d “had a gay relationship with him.” I never met Kelly Simpson but Richard Beacham, Harry Scammell, and Nelson all seemed to know him, or know of him. Anyway, McBrien did not put Kelly Simpson in his biography of Cole, which came out about 30 years ago.

Last Thursday, when the rains began, I was in Jersey City putting up posters and flyers for the HM with Nick (Smerglio?) and Elijah something. Nice guys. Nick I run into all the time. Worked with him at the Brooklyn Half Expo in April, then I see him at the Ferry landing and on trucks, and last Wednesday at the warehouse when I dropped by to pick up my gear (a lanyard and badge, a yellow t-shirt, a long-sleeved navy sweatshirt from last year, when they had Adidas sponsorship), and now he’s taping up posters with me along the Newport and waterfront area of JC. And then he’s on a truck again on Saturday at 4am, dropping off tables and cups and ponchos so we can set up the fluid station. FS7 was the most remote of these stations, far behind the parking lot near Ellis Island, with a (remarkably distant) view of the Statue of Liberty (see photo above, from my marshaling station). Nick is moving back to Connecticut so won’t be around much for nruns. After postering in the drizzle in Jersey City, we took the PATH train back from Newport (formerly Pavonia/Newport but they’ve dropped the Pavonia part now). Crowded. Why? Middle of the day? We had to stand. Finally as we rumbled into Christopher St I said, “I can’t take this anymore,” and said goodbye. I had the notion of going up to Myers of Keswick to buy some pork pies. Which I did. Paul B and I had been discussing them recently on Facebook. I took them home and gobbled them down very quickly.

Around two weeks ago I met abject failure in two projects. First was the sourdough thing. That’s just not going to work out for me. I’ll keep jars of starter in the fridge, maybe try later. I made English muffins that were like hard, spongy, oily crumpets. Actually ate a couple with hamburgers. Quite filling. But I threw the others out. A big round loaf didn’t quite work out.

The other failure was with the Sharp Twin Energy Vacuum. It wore out or I destroyed it by mishandling a brush belt, but whatever, the brush does not turn. With great effort I put the last belt in the closet on the axle and brush, but it disintegrated into tar and smoke in a minute. It was the wrong belt. It was the belt for the Dirt Devil. I’d gone through two Sharp belts. So I bought two more belts through eBay, genuine Sharp ones, and put one on (much quicker operation). Easy-peasy. But the brush won’t turn and the belt’s rubber and remaining tar from the bad belt continue to burn and emit black smoke and powerful sell. I don’t think this Sharp is salvageable.

I feel bad about tossing it out because it was an actual  purchase of Moki’s, in July 1999. I found the manual, and the receipt from a place out in Queens. Now, it happens that relations between me and Moki were at a low point just then. I tried to remain chipper and cheerful and he had made up his mind to get rid of me. I had become another Mary Durdines. He was so out of it he wanted to know if I could go back to Laura. Sure, I could have gone back to Laura…6 or 18 months earlier! Moki was troubled, but unnecessarily mean to me. Had he been a blood relative putting me through this, I might have severed ties entirely. But we semi-separated for a couple of years—I’d come by for a day or two at time, and he was particularly difficult in the winter of 1999-2000, and held onto some terrible habits like making drunken calls to me at work to ask about some Excel function or something—and somehow by the time 9/11 had passed, the worst was over.

Remembering those bad times will help me get rid of the Sharp. I’d thought it was the Sharp, not the Dirt Devil, that Moki had retrieved from the trash bay. The Dirt Devil had all or more of its accessories, the Sharp was missing some important ones: the extension tubes and crevice device. If I had those, and the machine wasn’t smoking too much, I could get rid of the brush and belt and use the Sharp like a canister vacuum. But no, too much trouble, and that’s no improvement on the Dirt Devil. I have woozy sentimental attachments to both vacuums. I was focusing very much on them in the short happy months after we came back from Palm Beach in 2021, and I figured out how to clean the hose of one and change the belt on the other. I kept the Sharp in the utility closet and and Dirt Devil over here on the other side of my night table.

Today I bought myself a sandwich at the deli counter at Morton-Williams, identical to what I’d get for Moki and me for years…his with lots of goop (has it really been a year since the last one? I think I recently dreamed of him telling me to ask for extra mayo), mine with none. Gobbled it down in an hour or so. It’s a day’s repast. The last time I got Moki a sandwich, almost certainly last October or maybe early November, he ate little or none of it. After four or five days the bread was stale and I tossed it. I figured I’d buy him a fresh one, no problem. He didn’t ask for another, didn’t eat anything more. Anything at all. He loved it when I got some Starbucks coffee downstairs, after experimenting with the phone app. That was November 6. The night of Nov 6-7 he shat heavily in bed and I never really got it all cleaned up. I imagine I’m still smelling the fecal pong, but there’s also a rather sewagey smell that comes from the bathroom: something to do with the pipes, not us.

A big surprise around mid-September was discovering the Nike Team Nationals shoes had sold, and I was a few days late with shipment. I bundled them up almost immediately.

One of my imagined nemeses, Hamburger Club’s E H F Maxwell, put a desperate long post on her Facebook timeline. I knew she was married to a Chinaman, or perhaps Korean (from her photos) but the marriage turns out to be anything but happy. He’s a sociopath who sold their house, moved away into a $6000 rental which he clearly cannot, is having her evicted as a result, is virtually bankrupt and living on credit; used up all of her assets, including her IRA. She has lived in virtual poverty for ten years, spending nothing on herself. Car was going to be repossessed but someone just totaled it. Her husband’s room is a rubbish dump but by going through piles of junk and wastepaper she’s found a couple thousand in loose cash. People have put up GoFundMe’s for her. Elyse is the diametrical opposite of me politically but she’s well-intentioned in her hopeless shitlibbyness. Also very pretty. Deserves better. Her mother a was chorus girl in some big Broadway shows. Her story reminds me of the pathetic tale of that Kirby in-law, Mary Alice Cooke or whatever, who went through a disastrous divorce 30 years ago in Westport, and her millionaire husband declared bankruptcy, denying her most of the assets from the sale of their house, but hid most of his assets away until the bankruptcy was over. I am toying with the idea of telling her this, but I think she 

Three weeks from tomorrow I see Dr Schiffman at Bellevue for the VCF. Have to get my weight down by then. Tomorrow I should wend my way over to MSK on 3rd Ave and request my own copy of my records.

I’ve been rewatching a lot of Kubrick movies lately. Getting back from the HM four days ago (Saturday) I rented Spartacus on Amazon Prime. Then conked out (vodka) and forgot about it for a day or two until when I attempted to rent it again and there it was waiting for me. In the second half came a brief scene the memory of which has puzzled me for many years (because I’ve seen this so seldom). There’s a dwarf dancing with a dog, when the mob of slaves are having a sort of Woodstock party on the hillside. I made a special point of watching the end of Shrek a few years ago because I thought it was a scene the cartoon party there. No, Spartacus.

 

Thursday, October 3, 2024

Gore Vidal’s birthday, right. I just discovered I never published yesterday’s entry so I’ll combine these into one.

I have now taken two 3-capsule doses of erythromycin today, and finished off the cough syrup I bought Tuesday night. Went to drug store across the street for some more syrup, and ordered a margherita pizza from Mangia meanwhile. Over $16 with tax. Yikes. Absolutely delicious though, and sustenance of the day, same as the Morton-Williams sandwich was yesterday. (Did I mention one of the sandwich punchcards is almost full, so my next sandwich is ‘free’?)

So many things I left out of my survey since early September. Two weeks before that Jersey City Half Marathon on the 28th, we had another nruns race on Gov Is, the Squirrel Stampede, and I didn’t have much to do at all except help put a tent up (I think) and marshal over by Division Road, a few hundred yards from the halfway point and the finish, and help pick up the delineators afterwards. Oh, had to put up and take down the decorative webbing in the corrals, too (see top pic). Absolutely no more work to do when I took off around noon. I think that was an easy day for me. These nruns days definitely seem less tiring, at any rate.

Did I mention anywhere I got a kitchen scale from Amazon in early September? My continued focus on the sourdough recipes had a lot to do with using that, I think. Now it sits there, unused, on a shelf in the pantry.

Mid-September I got around to buying a photo album on eBay. A rather old, but unopened and unused piece, from maybe 20 years ago, with the then-fashionable hole in the cover for your most favored portrait. Very few sheets in this, all of the top-loading type, but my immediate need was a place to transfer the 2011-2020 pictures from the squarish black album that began in 2001. This didn’t work out well because the posts with the album were short little mothers, couldn’t accommodate more than about ten sheets. So down to Dick Blick for album posts. (I went to Wegman’s near Astor Place as well, bought bacon for some reason, and chunky sea salt. And hamburger meat. I think this is where I made hamburgers with the soggy pucks of crumpets that were supposed to be English muffins.) Around the 20th-21st, the weekend in-between Squirrel Stampede and JC Half Marathon.

So I got the 2011-2020 photo pages into the new album, with the longer posts, but I still have a shitload of pictures I want to add to the album but can’t because I don’t have pages. 12×12 album pages are excessively difficult to find. Fortunately I also acquired some white-ink gel pens for writing on those black album sheets I put in years ago. So I can buy black sheets.

Another items I bought at Dick Blick was a picture frame. Plastic frame but glass front so cost about $11, more than I thought from looking at what I though was the shelf price. I had exactly one picture in mind for it, and that is the enlarged cover of The Wrong Set that is always hanging about. So here it is, looking very lonely.

I watched The Third Man this past weekend (I think it was). Visually superb, but not a good flick in so many ways. Too long, too expressionist. All these oblique camera angles. A gossamer, unlikely plot device that reveals itself at the end. Harry Lime staged his own death but is really hanging out in the Soviet sector because they won’t arrest him there. His presumed crime is obtaining bootleg penicillin from the hospitals and diluting and reselling it. This strikes me as highly unlikely, as does the notion that diluted penicillin would of itself kill one or make you go off your nut. Graham Greene wrote this screenplay as a new screenplay, not adaptation, sketching it out in novella form first; and meant it as an exercise in moral ambiguity. To illustrate ambiguity we have Harry profiting off the deaths of people who were going to die anyway. Other unlikely elements include the subplot of the Czech/Austrian woman with a forged passport, who is worried about being deported back to Czecho. But she was probably born about 1918, so wherever she was born it was still Austria, and it’s not likely the Soviets would make a stink about recovering her. Then you have the Joseph Cotten character, a writer of Western pulps named Holley Martens, whose Zane Grey-type adventures have a following even in England and Austria. The pulp writer is inveigled to lecture at a cultural society in Vienna one evening, introduced to it by a minor character played by none other than Wilfred Hyde-White.

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Where Are the Red Lobster Notes?

At some point in the past five or ten years ago I had a semi-public blog posting (accessible, but not easily traceable to me) about how Red Lobster’s decline was largely because they attracted too many niggers. In the course of this I quoted some online complaints about the place which I found simply hilarious.*

This comes back to me now because Red Lobster is in the midst of biting the dust because they overreached last year with an all-you-can-eat shrimp special. That at least is the excuse you read in the news. NYTimes piece today. More likely it’s a restaurant theme whose time has come and gone.

My sourdough starter was re-fed today and almost doubled in size. On a sour note, my ciabatta is not working out at all. The dough is too wet and soggy. I will give it a little more time to rise before trying to bake it. I don’t think it’s the fault of the biga. I think it was just too wet to begin with and not whipped up enough.

Money palpitations. The duck is now down to $300, as I put $200 into the Citi account to pay the Citi Cash Card due. I’d taken $100 out a few days ago and $200 back in June to archive my busted MacBook Air drive, which I’d fried around June 8. SS comes in a day, but it’s barely going to see me through, even with the Gusto pittance and whatever from CC because I’m at least a thousand per month short of what I need to get by, and two thousand short of what I need for a measure of comfort. I just am not making enough of an effort. Need to draw and write and push out the begging-bowl.

Went to Whole Foods and bought: parchment paper, milk, 4.99 frozen WF365 bbq chicken pizza. Latter was so-so but certainly edible.

A Substack post about Sixties Sitcoms got some favorable feedback from my tiny audience. Less so, my Ambassador’s Dogsbody opening, which I intended to be dense.

Supposedly the pittance from the sale of the Michigan Kennedy spikes hit my USAA account but I didn’t notice that when I looked earlier. Note to double-check earlier.

Still listening to and enjoying the Kubrick book. A couple of nights ago, slightly under the weather, I decided my 2020 Census earphones were lost for good, and I searched for an alternative. Rigged up the Lightning dongle and the noise-cancellation headphones and they worked fine, but it made for some uncomfortable head-resting on the pillow. Sunday midday I got up and gave another look around. There were the white Census earphones, dangling from the foot of the bed.

I wonder if I should whip the Embreeville memoir into shape. Toys in the Attic, etc. The Snake Lady. I wrote all that when I was in a morbid state of mind, about three months into my time at the Hippodrome in 2010.


Postscript October 4, 2024. The Red Lobster thing from 2017 turned up in one of the m****td***y blogs yesterday. I found it by doing an internet search for Red Lobster and Joe Queenan. I’ve pasted a slightly edited version to this blog, as of October 3.

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